"I was desperate to just start fresh, just be a face in a the crowd, where no one knew me. Sometimes we just need that."

 I’m not going to say my life sucks because that’s a complete lie. But I’m not going to say its the best either because that’s not quite true. All I’m going to say is I’m living and dealing with everything day by day and whether its good or bad, I’ll live through it all. 

So yes, I laughed. I laughed at the pain and the futility and the frustration and the heartache to keep it separate from me. And while it may seem like insanity to you, it is the thing that prevents it, for me.

It’s like I’ve stopped smiling. You put me through hell, but I’m not weak. I can pull myself together, and most of these smiles are real. No boy will get in the way of letting me live my life. I’m stronger than that.

PS:    You've got a lot to say for the one that pushed me away.

"Sometimes, between people, it takes a long time to get over the disappointment they can cause each other."